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~*~tiNkErbEll~*~
Apr. 18th, 2005
01:11 pm
Wow i havent updated a while but i guess its because my lifes been pretty pain and simple lately. Nothing exciting has really happened...Lately i have been in the best mood. I havent been cranky or bitchy which is so good..thank goodness i am finally getting better. Today i had late start and now i am @ o tech..i guess im going to pick dj up from school and then have him help me with math and go to his hockey game @ 930...same ol' same ol'
bouncyMar. 24th, 2005
04:20 pm
..:::*Leavin' for Florida*:::..
Fight comes on around 10:45 on Tuesday the 5th
confusedMar. 23rd, 2005
04:51 pm
Hmmm....2day wasnt 2 bad. 1sy hour was the Ellen foster test...2nd hour we ate bagels and did word searches and i got an 88 on the test i thought i failed. Then went to seminar and got to be reminded of dj and mollie.I went to otech and realized i 4got my shoes so i couldnt dress but it didnt matter to much they didnt send me to the office thank goodness. Then i went to the eye doctor bc my contacts are messed up and then came home. Im sooo damn bored! well i have to go pack bc im leaving for florida with dj 2morrow.....xoxo
lonelyMar. 22nd, 2005
11:19 am
~*`*I love you not only for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you. I love you not only for what you have made of yourself, but for what you are making of me. I love you for the part of me that you bring out*`*~
Last nite ended up being a bit better i guess. I ended up going against my will and calling Dj. He told me he would call me when he was done and i wasnt expecting a phone call back. Sure enough he called. I went and picked him up and Cissel was with him. They came into my car talkin about girls and right off the bat that made me aggravated. Then we went to old navy so i could buy flip flops for flordia. I got pink, white, blue, and yellow. Then we went back to his house and i was really down. On top of that it was so weird for me bc Dj acts like a totally different person when hes with andrew. I still love him and all but i dont like the person he is around him...its like he is 2 faced...ahh i dont know. Then i had to go get food bc my blood sugar was real low and i was on the verge of passing out. Then i went back to Djs and ate and then i felt better but still my tummy hurt. We cuddled and even though i was soooo mad @ him for what he did to me earlier i couldnt act mad. It is so frustrating that i cant stay mad @ him. He made me feel so good though. He was saying things to me bc i was so sad and it finally put a smile on my face. He knows how to piss me off but on the flip side he 4sure knows how to made me really happy and can always put a smile on my face no matter how bad of a day i had and i love that. Hes the most amazing guy although he pisses me off to no extent. Sometimes i just wanna kill him but i know that i cant live w/o him...but when it comes down to it no matter what hes always there for me and understands me and as weird as this is i see him as my best friend. I love him more then anything in the whole wide world! xoxo muah!
boredMar. 21st, 2005
04:46 pm
WOW...i had the shittiest day ever. Had a math test 1st hour and i didnt know it. Then 2nd hour was just boring and then i didnt get to go to lunch had to finsih takin the math test. After lunch i went to otech and then i got a voicemail from Dj and i called him and he asked if i'd hang out with him. I him id call him when i was done with the doctor. He told me to come over around 4 when i was done. I was on my way there and i called him a million times and no answer. I decided to just go home and he'd call me back bc he normally always does. Then i talk to katie and i told her how i was bored and she said that she was mad bc glen kinda ditched her bc they had plans and then he went to play poker. I said that i was kinda mad bc Dj wanted to hang out but never answered his phone. So then she informs me that hes with glen playin poker. I was really kinda pist considering we had plans. So i called glen and asked if he was really with dj and he said he was and so i asked if he had his phone or if he 4got it @ home on accident and hes like uhh no he has it....so therefore he was ignoring my calls. Sweet b/f huh?!? Sounds like a b/f ud wanna have right...ditches u, talks about other girls, and ditches u @ ur own dance for another girl. Im suppose to go to flordia with him on thursday but who knows if i want to anymore...thats really gay of him to do all the shit to me lately.
WHAT DO I DO?????? HELP....
angryMar. 20th, 2005
11:50 am
So last nite was the black and white semi formal. I went with Dj and Colleen. I thought it'd be so lame bc not a lot of ppl were there but i had fun. When i 1st got there these 2 girls decided to try and be hardasses and say they wanted to beat my ass or something but i wish they would just stop bc they are all talk and its rediculas bc ive never done anything to them. Thats so immature im thinkin they needa life and grow up...this isnt 6th grade anymore. Then it was my own dance and Dj ditched me. I was sooo mad i didnt know what to do, i was just sittin there by myself just knowing my bf was on the dance floor freak dancing with another girl...i was so crushed. Other then the girls bothering me and dj hurting me it was a lot of fun. As much as i wanna be mad @ him i really cant. Hes such an amazing bf that its immpossible to be mad @ him even though in a sense he kinda cheated on me. Im glad he loves me and turned her down for the crazy things she wanted him to do. This is y i cant trust girls...they'll stab u in the back. So last nite i was really upset and so zach came over for like 5 minutes to make sure i was ok. Then Dj and i argued about the nite and he hung up on me and wouldnt talk to me. So i called him when i woke up this morning and he didnt answer so i was nervous he still didnt wanna talk to me. Then i fell back asleep and he called me back. He was still mad @ me and i had to like beg him to hang out with me. He gave in so i showered and i went over there. It was weird bc he acted lik nothing happened and he gave me a hug and kiss and the hour that i was there was perfect even though i was still really <3 broken.
apatheticMar. 18th, 2005
11:45 am
Wow its so damn weird. Ive never ever felt like i did last nite. It was such an indescribable feeling. It was like a heart break. It was weird like it felt like my heart hurt and then my stomach in knots and i had the worst butterflies. I know i really needa get over my jealously issues when i know he loves me and wouldnt hurt me. I just feel so selfish like i want him all to myself and i know i cant so y am i acting like this? Its like hes never mean to me or anything just little things every guy does like comment on all the hot girls and w/e but thats the typical guy thing right? I hate that hes paying attention to other girls it just makes me feel like im not good enough. I love him more then anyone will ever know but i dont know how to tell him and or show him...i wish i could! I cant see me without...hes everything to me. So thats maybe y im scared bc hes lookin @ other girls which means hes attracted to them which could potentially lead to cheating...i hope not! Well im outta here...xoxo Nat
Mar. 14th, 2005
Mar. 10th, 2005
10:32 am - ::.*.::BOrEd::..*..::
Created by uraverageteen and taken 30601 times on bzoink! | |
| The Generic Teenager Stereotype | |
| Do you drink [alcohol]? | nOpE |
| Do you party a lot? How often? | NoT mUch aNymOrE..OncE eVerY fEw wEeKs |
| Do you use drugs for recreational purposes? | OMG I HATE DRUGS! |
| How often do you use the word like in an average hour? | a MilliOn oR sO...LoL I dOnT knOw |
| Do you skip classes? How often? | onLy wHen Im lAzy..NoT mUcH |
| Do you have casual sex? Protected? | pErSonAl..... |
| Do you steal? | nOpE |
| Do you wear inappropriate clothing? | nOpe |
| Do you drool over celebrities? | nOt rEaLLy...iTs a WasTe of TimE i dOnT haVe a ChaNcE |
| Do you watch a lot of TV? | hArDly eVer |
| Do you ever watch the News? | nAh |
| Do you even care about world issues? | sOmEtiMes..NoT mUch UnlEss Its bIg |
| Do you read books often? | JusT fOr sChoOl |
| Are you failing a lot of your classes? | nOnE |
| Do you spend most of your time with your friends? | yEah |
| Do you smoke cigarettes? | NoPe..tHanKs DJ |
| Do you hang out a lot in malls, or at Seven Elevens? | nOt rEaLLy HaNg oUt..SHOP |
| Do you often find yourself with a crush on someone? | yEah |
| Do you cuss a lot? | TrY nOt tO bUt wHeN iM mAd yEaH |
| Are you desperate to fit in? | nO..dOnt cAre WhaT peOplE thInk |
| Are you intelligent? | yEah..fInalLy lol |
| The Goth Stereotype | |
| Black lipstick? | hEll No |
| Black eyeliner? | yA |
| Black eyeshadow? | nopE |
| Black trenchcoat? | uHhh No |
| Black boots? | nO |
| Black fishnets? | uH uH |
| Black nail polish? | nOpe..PinK |
| Cigarettes? | nO |
| Heavy metal music? | fUck No |
| Marilyn Manson? | hEs scAry so NO |
| Kittie? | wHatS thAt |
| Cradle of Filth? | uHH no? |
| Constant frown and perpetual angst? | no..iM aLL sMilEs |
| Do you like to be seen as | whAt? |
| Are you an intellectual? | ...? |
| An atheist? | No wAy |
| Horrible home life? | iTs sHittY |
| Hopelessly depressed? | nOpE dJ maKeS mY liFe aMazIng |
| Suffering with suicidal idealations? | nOpe...OveR thaT shIt..NOT WORTH IT! |
| Self-mutilation? | noPe |
| The Punk Stereotype | |
| Plaid? | oNlY whEn i WenT tO cAthOliC sChoOl |
| Big black boots? | nO |
| Mohawk? | hElL no thaTs uGlY! |
| Excessive piercings? [Especially facial] | nOpe...eArs anD bEllY ButTon |
| Loud, confident and opinionated? | yEah |
| Wild hair colors? | nOpe...juSt pLaiN bRoWn |
| NOFX? | ...? |
| Rancid? | ...? |
| Well versed on political scandals and outrages? | noPe |
| A | ??? |
| The Jock Sterotype | |
| What's your IQ? | i DonT kNoW? |
| Do you watch a lot of sports? | nOt mUch...jUst WhEn wIth thE b/F |
| Play a lot of sports? | eHhH GueSs nOt |
| Talk a lot about sports? | nO |
| Do you do anything, really, but think about sports? | yeAh...i hAve a LifE |
| Are you arrogant? | fAr frOm |
| Are you a male or female whore? | haHa NO!!!! |
| Are you homophobic? | KinDa |
| Do you tease other people a lot because you want to seem confident? | nOpe...iM niCe |
| But really you're a quivering mass of insecurity? | nO |
| Boobs = yes? | hAhA no.... |
| Parties = yes? | yA |
| Dropping out of high school and flipping burgers = yes? | nOpE!!! |
| The Girl Stereotype | |
| Do you spend a lot of time on your appearence? | nOpE |
| Have you ever been on a diet? | nOpE |
| How much did you lose? | .... |
| Was it not so much a diet as it was an eating disorder? | nOnE of ThAt |
| Make yourself throw up? | nOpe tHaTs gRoSS |
| Make-up? | nOt muCh...NatUral iS thE wAy tO gO! |
| Low-cut tops? | noT rEaLLy...NotHinG tO sHoW oFF |
| How big are your boobies? [Cup size] | sMaLL |
| Do you flip your hair when you talk, even if you don't realize it? | PrObAllY |
| Giggle a lot? | yA haha |
| What's the deal with boys? | HaVe a BoYfRieNd |
| Thongs? | yEaH |
| Pretty bras? | yUp |
| YM, Teen, Cosmo, et al? | cOsMo |
| Who's the weaker sex? | hOneStLy pRobAlly GiRls |
| Are you a feminist? | nO |
| Do you think Brad Pitt is hot? | nOt rEallY |
| How often do you shave your legs? | eVerY oThEr dAy |
| How about your armpits? | EvErydAy |
| Are you emotional? | yEah |
| Especially when on your period? | uH hUh |
| This Or That [Oh, that old coconut.] | |
| Originality or Acceptance? | OrIgInaLiTy |
| Independence or Companionship? | ComPaniOnsHip |
| Stability or Freedom? | FrEEdOm |
| Personal or Interpersonal? | PeRsOnaL |
| Introvert or Extrovert? | WTF iS thAt? |
| Popularity or Isolation? | PoPulAriTy |
| Unique or Loved? | LoVeD |
| Understood or Individual? | UnDeRstOOd |
| You or Them? | ThEm |
bored09:33 am - UgHhHhh
wOw...wHerE dO i sTarT?!?
So yeSterdAy waS beYonD f*eD uP! My dUmB oTecH teAcHeR caLlEd mY paReNts aNd sAid mY grAde wEnT frOm a 98 tO a D...tHat doEsnT haPPeN...wTf is She TaLkiN' aBouT?!? ThEn sHe wEnt oN tO teLL mY unExcUseD aBseNceS...BITCH! NoW iM in SoOoOo mUcH trOublE...thAtS a WhOle LOttA gaY! ThEn dJ anD i dIdnT haVe suCh a gOOd day, buT i gUesS a liL biT oF ArgUinG iS nOrmaL..rIghT? oH i StiLL lOvE hIm aNd aM glAd i dIdnT lEt mY anGeR tAkE ovEr mE foR ThE woRst aNd brEak uP wIth hIm.
..::*TODAY*::..
It wAs sOoOo sHitTy... mY alArM diDnT gO oFF aNd iF iT wAsNt fOr dJ caLlin' mE i WoUld oF bEen sO laTe foR SchOOl. I hAd lEss tHen 5 MinuTes to ThRow MysElf 2gEthEr. BuT i wAs In suCh a gOOD mOOd beCauSe whAts bEttEr tHen waKiNg uP tO gOODmoRniNg PreCiOus fRoM uR boYfrIenD?
1sT hOur:
HiStoRy...hOw bOriNg! We hAd a 1/2 dAy so It wAs oNly 40 MinuTes aNd We jUst waTcHed a MoviE....
2Nd HouR:
EcoLogY..mY fAvOriTe cLasS. We jUst Did a WoRksHeeT, sOcIalizEd, aNd gOt grAdes. I hAvE a 98 pErCeNt..gOt a 92 On mY teSt...&...110/100 oN oUr hUgE biOmE prOjeCt sO tHaT mAdE me hAppY!....
OH SHIT!...nOw iM jUst cHillIn @ hOmE aNd cOnfRenCeS arE 2NitE...WisH mE lUcK! <3 Ya!xoxo mUaH!...::*NaTaLiE*::...
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